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    January 05

    Starting From Zero Again

    I fought long and hard to get Shumi here. When victory came, Fate struck its dagger into my back. Within 24 hours of Shumi arriving I was made homeless.
    That utter feeling of horror, desperation and gut wrenching damnation. No words would be enough to convey feelings I had. All that I owned suddenly did not belong to me. Comforts were now aliens to the host. The only thing I could think of what world had I bought Shumi into? At what point would I shatter her dreams or how would I greet her?
    Then the story unfolded like some macarbe screen play. At some previous undetermined time whilst I was fighting for Shumi's visa, My mother had turned against her. A misguided mothers instinct that Shumi would some how tear me against and away from the family fold. Too late to change things, the family had decided that they would not allow Shumi's presence or stay in the family home.
    The family never told me until the 11th hour. That was when Shumi revealed that she had known about this all along but had not told me as it would have caused me stress! I tried in vain to turn things around with my mother and it fell on deaf ears.
    Picking Shumi up from the airport was a low key affair. None of the grandeur that I had wished for. A cousin provided transport. One of my sisters took us in. A week later the cousin who had given us a lift from the airport, His family took us in. Initially a spare room and then three months later we moved into the vacant basement flat.
    The first few days were hard. A year apart had taken its toll on our immediate relations. The initial stress of being homeless had also had a massive effect on Shumi. But as time went on things got better for us.
    Eventually I switched jobs for a what was a nice sales office in London Bridge. Unfortunately that was about the time the recession was starting to take a hold. Sales dried up at the outset. Since then I have settled for another company that is doing much better, This was in late November.
    From the beginning up until Sept it has been tough. What you read here is a summary and it has taken me about a week to write this as it has been quite difficult to recount things. But far from doom and gloom we have had happier days, Days out and some romantic moments too. Our love for each other has grown much, much stronger now. A recent 2 nights out of town at my brothers place, without Shumi was very difficult for both of us. This year there is the chance that we might start for a family aswell!
    The moral of the story is that life is very uncertain, But sometimes good does prevail over evil or adversity. In this life you have to constantly try. Set yourself a goal. When you finally find someone that you love, You end up as a provider and that is a very warm dare I say it, parental feeling. I feel whole, I feel wiser and stronger. Sometimes the challenges make sense and sober you to the realities of life.