Shumi has recovered and is back to her normal self now. It has been a huge, huge relief. I have never seen her so upset and my biggest fear was of her slipping into depression. The one saving grace of the whole episode (Miscarriage) has been that it happened during the Easter Holidays when I have been off work and there to help comfort her. It has brought us closer together and showed us our personal capacities to weather what life throws at us. Telling her about the startling statistics of miscarriages (1 in 4, 250,000 a year in the uk, 80% within 12 weeks) has stopped her from blaming herself. We will try again once she is ready. The ability to heal through love is extraordinary. If you direct your energies actions and focus, I believe any hardship can be endured. Never falter, always stand your ground. With Shumi I had to project confidence and strength. If I broke then she would have broken. The seldom occasion I did falter, I'd disappear outside and share a cig with my concience. Then I would come back and be her shoulder to cry on and her voice of hope. When you have a hand to hold onto, There is nothing on Gods Earth that can cause you fear.