Many a time its crossed my mind to shut this place down. One thing always stops me.... It's my life. My epitaph, a place for me that is free from the toils of my life.  I don't have the time to update as I used to, certainly not as much time to decorate with my usual graphics. But I will try.

We are happy. It may surprise you to know that we have reconciled with my family and indeed we have move back in. I work unsocial hours and Shumi continues her language classes, now 5 days a week. Slowly, but surely gaining a foothold in life. Being married things have become more focussed. Time has to be planned and managed for.  We are content and settled. She has a very optimistic outlook tempered with an impatience. Me, I don't know anymore. I have become a lot more calmer now and more laid back. Yet I do have an uneasyness about the future. The last couple of years has been one continuous fight for one plight or another. It seems odd to have a period of calmness. I am still very idealistic and there are a fair few social injustices that grieve me. Yet I am calmer. Shumi does that. To a degree I have become more insular. The strength of our relationship has made wider sphere's of social influence irrelevant. Only things that directly affect us are important now. In the past I wasted so much energy effectively chasing my tail.

I try to improve myself. Always help those who need help. Live a modest life within my means. Have a keen interest in the world. I project myself neautrally & do not seek to influence or manipulate others offensively. I do not aquire anything material unless something of equal value is presented to Shumi. Spend atleast one period a day enquiring of her mind and expressing love to her. Making sure that she has an active role in any decisions of importance. Whether in business or social life, I am a firm believer in "What comes around, Goes around" - You reap what you sow. It's just a matter of time when it comes back.

Despite social networking sites, Popular music, magazines & tv shows like to make you think - At the end of the day it's integrity that determines who you are. Empowering yourself is doing the right thing. Not buying or influencing, But just being a lady or a gentleman.